by miss iris Society dictates so many things for us. It tells us what is the "in" thing and how we should look and behave. It tells us how we should live our lives. We are affected by the people around us and even when we want to go against the crowd and be "different" we do it because of the effect society has on us.
Sometimes the world and its dos and don'ts can sound like bees buzzing around. You can't really make out any truths but it's there and you accept it as it is, but you are never satisfied. It's always on to the next thrill, it's always on to the next best thing. The realization of dissatisfaction is always something that jolts me. I realize that I am drifting away from my source of happiness and so I'm not satisfied.
I remember the days when I was deep in that source and yearn for them. Yet, I'm so far off that I don't know what to do to get back to the place I was before. Even while I think about that, I know that getting
back to that place is not what I want. I want to move forward.
You are the hope I have for changeYou are the only chance I'll takeYet, there is always hope for me. Even in my drifting God still calls me back to him. He still gives me more chances, so much more that I cannot even begin to count the number of chances that I've asked of him and received. For this grace I am grateful.
And I'm on fire when you're near youAnd I'm on fire when you speakAnd I'm on fire burning at these mysteries– "On Fire", Switchfoot
I cannot understand why a God so big will take a person so small and weak and love them so unconditionally. Such love is a mystery to me. I cannot attain it.
O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.
Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising,
thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou
compassest my path and my lying down, and art
acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word
in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it
altogether. Thou hast beset me behind and before,
and laid thine hand upon me.
Such knowledge is toowonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.Ps 139: 1-6
Are you being warmed by God's love at this place in your life?
Comments (4)
Amen! His love is everything I've ever wanted. Like you, I get restless and unsatisfied when I drift from Him, but it's so wonderful to remember and return. I get scared that He will be angry, but instead, He takes me in His arms and comforts me with His love. I don't understand His love for me, but I am learning to lean on it and trust it. The more secure I become, the less I ever want to stray away. He's captured my heart with His tenderness, and I love being His little girl.
Thanks for the post. It's lovely.
Beautiful post.
I've wasted the majority of my youth living by society's dictations (more specifically, my "crowd"). It's a wonderful feeling to know that I've changed and God forgives me for it. The darkest times were when I'm farthest from Him.
amazing post! i truly loved this one. every time i stray away and forget about Him, He calls to me to come back and forgives me for straying away. Also, like you were saying "such love is a mystery, i cannot attain it" it truly is a mystery how He could love us so much and so unconditionally. God is amazing!
I sure am. There is nothing more precious then to feel the warmth of his love during pain, joy, happiness and sorry. God post! God bless.