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Thursday, July 17, 2008

  • MY INNER MOST FEELINGS

    YESTERDAY MY EMOTIONS WENT BESERK, I FELT SADNESS/ANGER/LONELY AND I ALLSO FELT USED AND I FELT LIKE NO ONE CARES ANYMORE ABOUT ANYONE. I EVEN LASHED  MY ANGER OUT ON MY ROOMATE CARRIE BY YELLING AT HER, THEN I TOOK MY ANGER OUT ON THE LIVEING ROOM WALL. THE OLY THING I MANAGED TO ACOMPLISH THERE WAS TO HURT MY HAND, IF YOU READ MY BLOGS YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND WHAT I HAVE BEEN THREOGH. I DONT HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE, CAN'T AFORD IT FOR ONE AND SECOND IT HELPS IF YOU HAVE FREINDS. I THINK WHAT MADE ME BREAK DOWN AND CRY WAS, I DONT KNOW IF I HAVE A FREIND ANYMORE OR NOT.

              I CONSIDER A GUY NAMED CHRISS TO BE MY FREIND AND SOMEONE I CAN TALK TO. IVE LOST SO MUCH IN MY DEVORCE, AND NOW I MIGHT HAVE LOST ANOTHER GOOD FREIND AND THAT MAKES ME FEEL SAD! I HAVE BEEN USED SO MUCH IN MY LIFE, I GIVE HELP TO OTHERS EVEN THOUGH I DONT HAVE MUCH TO GIVE. I HELPED CHRISS WITH ADVICE AND MONEY FOR DIAPERS FOR HIS DAUGHTER AND WITH GAS MONEY. I FED HIM AND HIS NOW EX GIRLFREIND EVEN THOUGH I HAD LITTLE FOOD FOR OURSELVES. THE LAST TIME I HERD FROM HIM WAS ABOUT 5 DAYS AGO, HE GOT THE LAST OF MY MONEY THAT I HAD LEFT FOR THE MONTH AND HE TOLD ME HE WOULD PAY ME BACK WHEN HE GETS HIS STIMULESS CHECK FROM THE GOVERMENT. WITCH I HERD FROM HIS EX GIRLFREIND HE GOT IT ON MONDAY. IVE TRIED TO CALL HIM TWICE A DAY FROM MONDAY TILL NOW WITH NO CALL IN RETURN, AND I LEFT MESSAGES ON HIS PHONE AND HE HAS YET TO CALL ME BACK.

                 NOW I FEEL ALL ALONE WITH NO FREINDS, SOMETIMES I WISH I DIDN'T BELEIVE IN GOD, BECAUSE NOW I FEEL LIKE DYEING. I EVEN HAVE HAD THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ABOUT RUNNING AWAY FROM EVERYONE IN THE WORLD. HOW CAN PEOPLE BE SO CRULE OR UNCAREING FOR ONE ANOTHER? NO ONE IS HELPING ME WITH ANYTHING, AND I THINK THAT IS WHY I FEEL SO ALONE. I DONT KNOW IF IM MAKEING A DIFFERENCE IN LETTING PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT JAMES KINGSLEY. HES A VERY DANGEROUS AND A CRAZY MAN, BUT I KEEP TRYING TO GET THE WORD OUT THERE. I DO IT BECAUSE I DO CARE ABOUT OTHERS, AND DONT WANT WHAT HAPPEND TO ME TO HAPPEN TO ANYONE ELSE.

        I DO THINK NOW MORE THEN EVER, THAT THE END OF TIME IS COMEING SOON. UNLESS WE CAN GET BACK TO CAREING ABOUT ONE ANOTHER, AND HELPING EACH OTHER THEN YES THATS WHAT I THINK WILL HAPPEN. IM A REGISTERD VOTER BUT I DON'T VOTE ANY MORE BECAUSE I FEEL THE GOVERMENT DOSENT CARE ABOUT THE PEOPLE ANY MORE! AND BEING HANDYCAPED DOSENT HELP WITH ME FEELING USELESS. MY HEART HAS BEEN BROKEN SO MANY TIMES, I DON'T KNOW IF I EVER WILL TRY TO FIND LOVE AGAIN. I HAD SO MANY OF MY DREAMS SHATTERD, LIKE HAVEING A LOVEING AND CAREING WIFE AND KIDS. NOW IM CRYING AGAIN!

       I LOVED MY STEP SON ROGER AND IF YOU WANT TO SEE A PICTURE OF HIM CHECK OUT MY PICS. AND I WILL ALLWAYS LOVE HIM! BUT THANKS TO MY EX WIFE I WONT EVER KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO HAVEMY OWN CHILD. I DONT HAVE A VEHICAL ANYMORE CAUSE I CANT AFORD IT, SO I CANT GO VISIT MY PARENTS AND TWO BROTHERS WHO ARE ALLSO HANDYCAPED. AND THAT MAKES ME SAD, I DO GET TO CALL THEM ONCE A WEEK THANKS TO A CALLING CARD I BUY AT DOLLAR GENERAL. BUT MY OTHER BROTHER IS IN A NURSEING HOME AND HES BEEN THERE SINCE HE WAS 20 YEARS OLD AND I CANT CALL HIM. I KNOW LIFE IS HARD BUT I DIDNT THINK IT WOULD BE THIS HARD. IVE ASKED SO MANY PEOPLE FOR HELP LIKE OUR OWN GOVERMENT AND THE CHURCHES IN MY NEIGHBOR HOOD THE CANIDATES FOR THE PRESIDENCY, ELEN DEGENEROUS SHOW AND EVEN IN MY FIRST BLOG EVER (MY LIFE WITH GOD) I ASKED WHO EVER READ IT FOR HELP! WELL I GUESS NOW THAT MY LIFE IS ABOUT OVER THAT NO ONE CARES OR WANTS TO HELP. SO THATS WHY I FEEL LIKE MY EMOTIONS ARE GOING BESERK!

    WRITEN BY JEFF SLOMKOWSKI

Monday, July 14, 2008

Thursday, July 10, 2008

  • theese are my journals please read them there has to be a way to get the word out there!

    http://www.theforumsite.com/users/jeffslomkowski/journal/

  • i was shocked and amased on what i saw on tv yesterday!

    yes i thought i would do a blog on the episode of wife swap but then i added my own coments in with it!

    my life with my ex wife was relived by a episode on wife swap veiwed by me on wjac tv 6 at 8 pm. now on this episode there was a very religous family the childs family with husband chriss and wife leann from rode island swap with and liberal christains beckmans from coloradopower executive wife kim and husband randal is a ex pastor and thinks to much religion is not good for you they both have kids it was a real drama! when i herd from the very religous familys father chris said hes the head of the house hold and that a wife is be his helper /server and that hes the gate keeper, those words gate keeper made me get chills all over my body! the reason why is because my ex wifes site she claims to be the gate keeper! link [profile.myspace.com] now this guy is sounding like hes bordering on a cult leader himself! if you read my blog my life with god, link [www.theforumsite.com] and you read the whole thing i admit it is long but dont forget im 45 years old thats alot to write.and if you read my blogs you will see why this episode of wife swap got to me.and of course im blogging on it a little, now my ex wife met a man on the internet named james kingsley aka jesus of zion a cult leader /con man.this false prophet needs to be stoped here is another blog i did on this false prophet link [www.theforumsite.com] now dont get me wrong i do beleive in religoin but i think there is a limit on how religous you get the father on this show said he is brain washing his kids and forceing them to beleive in what he beleives in! and this family shows proof that to much religon is not a good thing. i mean i beleive in god and jesus but if i had kids i wouldnt force them to do what i beleive religon is a choice. and im sure there are some of you that may have thought i was over religous, and that i should give up on this guy jesus of zion. and that i have gone to far you see here is the diference from me and the man on wife swap[ im not going to let this jesus of zion rule my life and lead it!but its my right as a human being as a indivisual and as a christain to warn people of this man jesus of zion link [profile.myspace.com] then i herd chris say his daughters are not aloud to date and that when there ready to get maried he will be the one to pick there wives or husbands thats just so wrong.they are home schooled so to me that means that they dot have freinds or aloud to stay over at a freinds house prison life it sounds like to me.he said that he lives his life by the bible that made me laff becuse if you lead your life from the bible literaly then you wouldnt be useing electric or television and i think television is a good learning device television brings familys together and you wouldnt beleive the conversations you can have with your family if you watch shows together! i do agree there are some shows your kids shouldnt watch,the father chriss dosent want to folow the rules of the show where the wife who swaps get to change the rules and they have to folow her rules for one week. he said that he dosent have to follow her rules because hes the man of the house and the wife is supose to be his suport!bull craop is what i got to say about that he sined a contract with the show wife swap to follow there rules. some rules are good but to much of a thing can get carried away like i do beleive kids should do chores. i was raised by my mother mostly because my dad was allways working. and im glad for that some guys would think im a wuss because i do alot of things a woman is sopose to be doing like cooking and cleaning sewing crocheghing yarn work laundry. but heres the thing its a learning exspreiance that was good for me because now im alone and im glad i learned how to do those things!i think its a good thing that kids have the choice to make wrong decissions to be able to learn fro there mistakes its apart of life and learning you can give them advice if they choose not to do it the way you said they should then they arnt going to learn for them selves!thats why we have freedom of religon and freedom of speech you cant force them to beleive in what you want them to beleive in they have a choice! now the object of the wife swap show is that someone learns something from the other family and usally they do learn from other family and learn they are doing something wrong and then they chang what they were doing wrong in there lives!theres alot i would have liked to have changed in my maried life,like not doing all the work in the house while my ex wife and step son did nothing but tell me what to do another words use me and abuse me. i finally have had enough and could not take it any more!but i did love her or i wouldnt have put up with all the abuce thats why i pray every day that some good things would happen to make my life better. ive had more bad things happen to me in my life so far. and thats why to that im trying to use the pas it on method witch was a real good movie and true story. if i get this mans info to the right person that can help to take this man down is a acomplishment that would be good for all! pass it on can work and if anyone out there wants to help me get rid of this false profit then all i have been through with this has been worth it all! se i beleive in that everyone has a mission in life your meaning of life mine is to help people and get rid of this false prophet. and if it gets passed on to the right person that beleives like me and dose like i do help others in need, see i beleive in love thy neibor help thy neighbor if you can stop someone from getting hurt its the christain and human thing to do is help! i allso pray to god everyday that the right personor persons out there will be able to help me out of the financial mess my ex wife and this evil man has forced apon me! so if there is anyone otu ther who can or will help me please contact me at jeff.slomkowski@yahoo.com and if you do help me may god bless you and your entire family,especialy during this time of hard ship and depression! writen by jeff slomkowski

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

  • I MUST BE DOING SOMETHING RIGHT!

    You know the blog i did that got some weird coments on? link [www.theforumsite.com]

    well i go to my myspase and wait to you see what i get in my mesage in box Jul 3, 2008
    4:31 PM
    JESUS of ..

    Read jeff.. Where is the LOVE?
    link [messaging.myspace.com]
    now i saw this as a threat against me i mean if he dosent know why i blog about him is he ruined a 7 year mariage with my wife who i did love and also ruined the love for my son oh excuse me step son and found out later after the divorce is final found out my son got a freind pregnant and i could have been a grand father! thi man is evil and can ruin peoples lives by lieing about who he realy is a crazy man not a prophet! plus the fact that hes taking the lords name in vain! so i ask you who ever reads this blog pas it on so the word gets out there about this guy james kingsley aka jesus of zion!

    writen by jeffslomkowski

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